Have had enough !

 I do not know where I should start about working to make my own pocket money, to making money for a living. 

I am not from a rich family. My parents have to work. My mum kept all of our Red packet money and it all gone to our new house renovation back in 1996. In 1995, we are still living on rental. We don’t have pocket money, we have to find ourselves. Thanks to my elder sister who is old enough to know the outsource of income. That is folding burning papers for Chinese festive offering. A stack would cost us RM10. A stack of about 10cm in the thickness, I couldn’t remember how many we gotta fold. It’s an original process  

We would go to all religious suppliers shop to enquire if they need that service. We could save the money we make and bought Dragon Ball comics in Bahasa version. Otherwise we would need to take turn to save our pocket money weekly and take turns to get an episode.  

That’s how it started finding outsource of income. 

It was not that joyful experience because all I want is just money. 

Ever since I graduated, I am still struggling financially. Not like everyone else who lived in Kuala Lumpur and don’t pay for rentals. I still have to pay my rent, car maintenance, and all necessities. 

I have the trife to be in the corporate world and I thought I would survive. I survived 14years and I start to hate. When you are working in a corporate office, you enjoyed all the benefits that at least make you feel mentally uhmmm.... reclaimed. However, dealing with human is not as easy as it seem, especially when you are dealing with so many parties. 

I can’t make everyone to like me. I can’t make everybody to agree with me, all I could is to do nothing that betrays nobody.  Somehow today, I’ve grown to a certain bitchi-neesss that I don’t like in myself. 

I felt it is really a time for me to work on plan B. How much longer do I need to get that income I desired. I am sort of surrender myself and just save my ass, go home someday and start a brand new life. I’m going to save enough till I feel comfortable with the amount. 

I literarily left without many friends. I have chose to isolate myself and make money spend more wisely. I don’t earn that much on my regular pay check. Because I chose to live more comfortably, that’s all I could afford at the moment. In had activities and travels in the past, they made me quite BROKE. I do not want to lose that energy when I could. 

Till the end of your life, it is all about the quality of life you had lived in. 

If your soul taken care of ? 

If your speech heard ?

If you have completed a set of life goals ?

And 

How much have you done for yourself before others ?