Black Swan

Had a movie date with colleagues after a long day of work. Non-stop. At first, we were to watch another movie act by Natalie and Ashton. The last show was on 7pm. So we picked the Black Swan. I had longer to watch this before as noted of her taking the classes for this movie. It was an awesome show. This reminded of my days. A person that lost its emotion control and suffering sort of mental illness and depression by the cause of depression.

I was sometimes, in this position, where I lost controls. Burst to tears for hours in the night for no reason. Hate a person where he/she don't even do any bad things on you. I knew that I need to overcome stress and be relax in order to get things right. Before this happening, I was about to stress the later part where it has yet to happen. Could it be, I think too much. I really want to overcome before it takes over me. I have stress living with my owner. Everyday, I keep reminding myself, to wipe the basin and sink after use, make sure the showerhead is in order, replace the floor mat nicely, shoe on the shelves even though I were getting out just in minutes, ask yourself if you had shuts switch off, you had to throw your menses pad right to the chute and not keep in your room, compress your trash so you can fill in more, your window is always close, wipe the window jill, wash your fans time to time, keep the drainage water from laundry, plus the toilet only from the drainage water.

You may lead to imperfection when you put yourself in the wrong path. I am struggling, overcoming my very OWN perfectionist. Sometimes, I don't know why should I be so sick of these as there are nothing's perfect till you, yourself name it PERFECT.