I made love to life

Call it a day, the weather that I’m most longing.  Desperately wanted to be else where out of this country in the search of my soul. Inside of me < how I wish those rainfall are snows > being in tropical climate is heavenly, tropics fruit give you the most vitamins that you need in your life. For example; mangosteen, durian, they have higher anti-oxidant properties that you can find in tropical fruits   I decided to continue recording my life and thoughts in the online journal of mine. It had since lapse for some many years because I had been focusing on my mental health stability and choose not to let off anger and frustration in any way. Nobody could really understood if they are not in your shoe or wear the same brain. Sometimes, you get even more frustrated to listen to one who never experienced that in their life.   How your day had been ? It was a raining day, woke up freezing, I do not know why, I wanted to get so much in the rain. Get ready, full force, I ai...

 First of all, I did not set a goal for 2021.  The agenda that was set were those that I realised it doesn’t work for me.  If you start of in the beginning of the year, it will be way easier for you to track, however, my contracts, bills all doesn’t start at the exact opening of each year. I will still require to keep track on everything in my pockets.  There will be a few distinct decision I have consider for the year of 2021 maybe starting from now, I am not very young to say we could always push the restart after a certain timeline. We are able to reset at anytime of the day of the year, it is definitely the matter of your mind. Somehow, I would rather choose instinct instead.  I wish the best for everyone in 2021, be change whom you wish to change, achieve whatever you wish to achieve and don’t forget you are allow to make amendments along the way. Plans had not been perfect all the time during the time of executions.  I faced a tons of challenges, anxi...

 I do not know where I should start about working to make my own pocket money, to making money for a living.  I am not from a rich family. My parents have to work. My mum kept all of our Red packet money and it all gone to our new house renovation back in 1996. In 1995, we are still living on rental. We don’t have pocket money, we have to find ourselves. Thanks to my elder sister who is old enough to know the outsource of income. That is folding burning papers for Chinese festive offering. A stack would cost us RM10. A stack of about 10cm in the thickness, I couldn’t remember how many we gotta fold. It’s an original process   We would go to all religious suppliers shop to enquire if they need that service. We could save the money we make and bought Dragon Ball comics in Bahasa version. Otherwise we would need to take turn to save our pocket money weekly and take turns to get an episode.   That’s how it started finding outsource of income.  It was not that joyful...

Had been struggling what content to put up so people would read at least.  I am bad at youtube, not appealing, as I understood many people had been trying to fill in the buckets for the better life.  I started this blog as a tool to relieved my boredom and to document everyday life that i kept  in my mind.  12 years ago, I don’t really bother who would read. i’m glad i did that because i don’t remember much anymore. Today,  I do not even know how to start off. They are a lot things running in my brain, a list of things that i wish to do and realised that, i am just to lazy to put my time really working the blog and becoming content creator. that is seriously not my kind of thing to be in the limelight.  My job has pretty occupied my time and making me slightly losing the morale to do what I’m keen doing. I am an adult trying to figure out the life that I wish to pursue.  I hope to use this same platform, to see what will I become in 2022. I would like ...